" A letter to an EX "
Remember that love letter I wrote for you a couple of months ago? In my
diary? That was actually talking about how I love you that much,
although we still talk somehow.
Guess what happened after our break up?
I was pathetically holding on because I was willing to wait for you.
Well, what about now?
Now,
that you have someone else? Someones who's at your age. Who's ten times
prettier than me, who probably doesn't bitch you about things , who
probably doesn't tease you childishly, who can probably give you all
things that i can't. And the funny thing is? It hurts like hell. Does it
really look like it?
Oh!
I guess not. I'd never show it, you see. I wouldn't let you have the
compliment now. After finding out how affected I become. But the worst
part of it all was that fact that whatever you did to me, I still end up
thinking about you.
And now? like finding out that you got someone else , when you promised
that you'd never look anyone else but me? LIES ! I hate you. I don't
even wanna see you. I don't want to talk to you, hear about you and love
you ever again.
I'm
breakable and I just did broke. No love songs can fix things now.I'm
totally overacting, for no one could ever make me feel better. Because
you left me under ice water, so deep, that I'd never be able to come up
for air if I wanted.
Aware that you don't want anything to do with me anymore, I'll just do
this last thing for you, even if it kills me. " I love you, Always have
and Always will. And I still love you from as far as what you need to
get from me.
Oh! and the last thing I'll do for you? Why don't you actually call me
for once and find out? You see, it'll be very confidential. In fact,
it's perfectly okay for exes to talk to one another, I'd do it all t6he
time, but since you're my first real boyfriend, so I got no exes at all.
Too bad.
Why are you acting so weird? I keep on talking to you but you keep on
pushing me away. No wonder, right now, I've been pushing myself away
too.You've been dragging me to hell. Then, only because I'm so hurt by
the fact that someone as jerk as you making me believe that you never
broke promises, could just CHANGE.
I don't know who are you anymore. I'd say someone that I used to
know, but it's far- far like you do. That would mean I completely shut
you out of my mind. And for some freaking reasons I;m having a hard
time in doing that. Maybe because you've permanently engraved your name
in my mind. Maybe because I associate pain with you , so everytime I;m
upset , I saw your face. Maybe because, I had fallen hopelessly in love
with you and was so stupid and naive enough to think the same.
I can't take it anymore. You've cut me into pieces, too small that I don't even know how to fix myself again.
I can't hold any bit longer. I hope your happy that you've got what you wanted and that was HURTING me.
I , sure didn't. Now, you WIN !
" Over and Over I tried,
Over and Over YOU lied,
Over and Over I cried "
SAYONARA !
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